Hey there.
Its been a while since my last post. I thought I would start back off with a post that reflects some of the songs that I've been listening to lately. These songs have not only been in my favorite's playlist, but also hold great meaning to me.
Here is music with meaning while living in your 20s. Literally!
SZA | 20 Something
I love playing this song during the summer. This song is on my "late night drives" playlist. It just hits a cord with me and I get feelings of sorrow, triumph, and memories of lessons learned.
“Hopin' my 20 somethings won't end
Hopin' to keep the rest of my friends
Prayin' the 20 somethings don't kill me, don't kill me”
This is that song that makes me feel like I'm lost in between two phases of my life. I have one foot in my childhood, in the comfort of my mom, and one foot in adulthood, being independent and thinking for myself. I also think about that lyric about "why you ain't say you was getting bored". I think about this lyric every time I listen to this song, because I worry that when I grow older I'll loose my youthful energy in the draining process of growing up and that my significant other will loose interest. Such a sad thought to think about, but I cannot let the stresses of life take my soul. This song also makes me think about all the hurt that I've had with the many no-so-wise decisions that I've made in the past years.
“How could it be?
20 something, all alone still
Not a thing in my name
Ain't got nothin', runnin' from love
Only know fear”
There’s also a lyric about keeping the rest of your friends. I know, that as I get older, my friendships will change. There's still a comfort in keeping friends from your childhood because they've seen you though everything. You want to keep that comfort, but I guess that's growing up, being in situations that make you uncomfortable. That's when and how you grow. The nostalgia of this song is amazing so please give it a listen.
Music Audio: "20 Something" By: SZA
NIKI DEMAR | 25
25! A good year to be alive if I do say so myself!
“I'm trying my best to be someone
Tryna deal with the feeling, everyone
Around me has found the something I can't find
Sometimes I'm a wreck, I think too much
Got a habit of fallin' in and out of love
Don't know where I’m going, but that's fine
'Cause this is my 25”
This song is beautiful is so many ways. I'm currently 25 and this song really strikes something in me about the social pressures of being an adult in today’s society. After high school and going into our 20s, everyone veers on their own path. Whether it’s going to college, getting married, starting a family, and maybe not even doing any of that. Life can be so confusing at times and comparing your life to others is not the way to look at things. This song lets me know that it’s perfectly fine to not know exactly what you want to do, where you want to go, and who you want to be with.
“Thought I knew exactly what I wanted
All the plans I planned I thought I'd have it all together
I don't have it all together”
I love that lyric of "I thought I had it all together". Isn't there a saying that if you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans. I remember one of my friends told me a few years ago that “people always have the freedom to change their mind”. That’s the beauty of life. Sometimes you never know where we’re going, but we always find our way.
Music Video: "25" By: NIKI DEMAR
sundial | 24
I played this song on repeat all the time a few months ago! In all honesty, I have no idea how I found this song, but I'm glad I found it!
“Parties end before I'm drunk
Friday night I'm tired as f*ck
I don't know how I ended up like this
Can someone tell me what the hell I missed?”
This is such a cute, fun, and honest song about basically being 24. I think we can all agree that no one knows exactly what they're doing in life. As I get older, partying might not be so intoxicating as it's cracked up to be. Sometimes watching some TV shows from your childhood and eating some snacks is the move. You know, the basics of adulting can be extremely stressful. Taxes are confusing, going to the doctor's and the DMV by myself is terrifying, and I still call my mom to ask how long I'm microwaving something for.
“Sleep till the sun's down, another breakdown
Feels like the days are all the same
New type of anxious, school never taught this
And what the fuck are taxes anyway?”
There are weeks when life is just moving so fast and you just want to rest and take a breather, and a nap. In the end, there is not a step-by-step way to navigate through your journey into becoming an adult. We're all just winging it I guess.
Music Audio: "24" By: Sundial
Meg Smith | Wake Me Up When My 20s End
I came across this song in my recommended list and it reminds me of that Hilary Duff and Ashley Simpson era of music.
Meg Smith an upcoming artist with hits like "Cross My Heart I Hope You Die". I love her other songs like "One Hit Wonder" and this song. "Wake Me Up When My 20s End" is a song that talks about how she’s dreading her 20s and how she can’t wait for her 30s. You know, “30, flirty, and thriving”! Sometimes I wish I could fast forward through all the awkward parts of growing up during this season of life.
“Walking home with my heels in my hand
Said tonight'll be different but it's how it always ends
Smoking on the top talking 10 top fears
Is this every night for the next 10 years”
Sometimes I get tired of continuously learning lessons and trying to figure out who I am. I have changed my mind many many times of what I want to do with my life. I just want to know who I am so that I can know what I'm supposed to do next. I guess, that's not how life works though.
“Wake me up when my 20s end
When I've got real friends and some real money to spend
'cause when I'm 30 I won't have to pretend
Wake me up, oh
Wake me when my 20s end”
Being in your 20s is annoying at times, but we have to go through this phase to discover our true selves. At least, that's what everyone tells me.
Music Audio: "Wake Me up When My 20's End" By: Meg Smith
H.E.R. | 21
First of all, I absolutely love H.E.R. and her music. I love her songs like "Do To Me", "Every Kind of Way", her collabs with artist like Daniel Caesar with their hit "Best Part", and Jhene Aiko with the song "B.S.". Now, with this specific song, "21" talks about H.E.R. basically being 21 and living in the fame.
“Old friends, they comment, but where you been?
One fish, two fish, you're all switched
Past tense back when I wasn't relevant it's evident (It's evident)”
I think about how people will look at you differently when you change or find success. I think about how my friends have "glowed up" since school and how people we use to know randomly start messaging me after not talking for a while. It's an interesting thing to experience, and I always wonder if I should even give it the time of day. I guess that's growing up, trying to figure out who is allowed to see who can be in and out of your live. That itself is terrifying because I never know if I am making the right decisions about things like that.
“8 a.m. meditate, I'm runnin' late
I'm out the gate, I'm on the way, tell 'em to wait
'Cause it's meetings here, it's people there, they everywhere
They want me to share, no way
Now that we number one, I gotta run, the deal is done
I don't need no sleep, I've been at it over a week
Can't work as hard as me but wanna eat
Can't cheat the grind”
Now a lesson that I have learned in my 20s is to allow my body to rest. You can't run on a low battery! It's great to grind, but also give yourself time to recharge. If you haven't already, check out H.E.R. and her amazing discography! Gotta support my Filipino sister!
Music Video: "21" By: H.E.R.
Khalid | Twenty One
This song makes me feel like it’s one of those summer nights when you have those long talks with your friends about everything. We talk about all the life problems that we may have. Broken hearts! Identity crisis! Financial struggles! We would talk about anything and everything without judgement.
“So lay with me, lay with me
We're underneath the bleachers
Stay or leave, stay or leave
I hope you're never leaving
All of these memories
Crawling underneath your skin, skin”
This makes me think so much about all the many struggles I’ve had in the past few years and how many of them I laugh about now. All these questions! How can the boy that I really like date someone else? How was I going to tell my mom about my career change? How do I find the courage to give someone a chance to be a part of my life?
“Don't believe everything
The shit you like gives you anxiety
But finally, I see you smiling
When you say you need privacy
You're only hiding from yourself mm”
I also think about how I process different things and how I react. I think about how much I have grown with my emotional intelligence with myself and others. Remember, you can't let someone, or something, shake you so much that it rattles your peace and who you are.
Music Audio: "Twenty One" By: Khalid
Thanks for reading and listening to this blog posts!
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Love ya :)
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