Hello.
I know it has definitely been a long time since I've done anything on any of my platforms.
You can say I've had a mix of writer's block and academic anxiety and struggles of being an adult.
In this time I learned that creativity can't be rushed! I love putting my emotion into all of my creativity platforms. You can say that now I can really write about what I'm feeling and not what I "should" be writing about.
This blog post definitely talks about one of the most intense emotions there is.
As always, thank you for being patient and please enjoy this Digital Diary on my experience with love.
Dear Digital Diary,
Love.
Probably the most talked about concept on earth, but still is so confusing to so many people.
Love is a confusing subject. Love has so many different intensities and different ways it can be expressed.
Love from your parents can help you grow up to the person you are now. For me, sometimes it feels like their love is a bit “too“ much.
Love of your friends can help you experience incredible things. Other times it can influence you to make not the best of decisions.
Then, there’s the classic, cliché love. The mushy, gusty love.
"That I can’t eat, can’t sleep, reach for the stars up over the fence, World Series kind of love."
That love.
So here’s my question…
Why are we SO OBSESSED!!!
My guess is that, as humans, we have a fear of being alone. In fact it’s human nature to not be. We have to have some kind of social interaction once in a while.
Another reason why I think people are so intrigued by love is that we like the idea of just having someone to call their boyfriend or girlfriend.
Is it the actual thing or is it just the idea...
Throughout elementary school and high school the idea of having a “boyfriend“ was not something I had on my mind.
"I actually didn’t start dating in general until college."
My reasoning behind this is, for one thing, I wasn’t really interested with anyone I had previously went to school with. In fact most of the people that I went to elementary, middle, and high school we’re all like brothers to me.
I didn’t know what I wanted or what I was looking for in a relationship in the first place. Along with this, I knew in my heart that I didn’t really know who I was as a person yet.
I get that some people can say, hey, that’s the whole point of dating!
To me, I never found someone that I emotionally, physically and spiritually connected with.
“But, luckily, I found someone”
In my now almost 2 year relationship I am so glad I waited.
"Xavier is like a dream come true."
What I’m trying to say is that it is so important and amazing to cherish your singleness. To genuinely grow independently first before you add another whole human into your life.
In my singleness, I confirmed my values, not just for a boyfriend but for myself. What I believe in and what I stand for have been clarified.
In my singleness, I have grown emotionally and have grown stronger.
In my singleness, I have grown spiritually and I have developed a better relationship with my faith.
If you find someone that helps you grow more into the person you want to become then you have found someone special.
Kisses and Cuddles,
Camille
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